Below you will find a copy of the true essay I had published in the anthology "Red Silk", put out by Womanspace of Rockford, IL.
“Ask, and ye shall receive.”
Five simple little words. Yet, if used properly, you will find that although both small and simple, those words are powerful.
I have always been a reader. Growing up, I was attracted to books and the world they allow you to inhabit. Summers when I was out of school, I would ride my bike up to the public library, where I would while away the long afternoons in the cool quiet library basement, reading biographies of famous people, spiders who spin webs describing fantastic pigs, and wrinkles in time. My vocabulary grew and grew, as did my imagination.
A fun writing assignment on parodies I turned in for an English class in high school turned out to be an example the teacher couldn’t wait to read in front of the class…and the attention I received…well, let’s just say I was hooked. Validated. I could write.
As I grew older, my tastes changed and I began reading more grown up fiction; romance novels, mystery, and terrifying novels about things that go bump in the night.
I also began journaling. I have been keeping a journal and writing down dreams (both awake and asleep) since I was 15 years old. As I grew older, it became less a dream journal and more an outline of what was going on in my young life; what I wanted, what was happening in my life, all my dreams and fears, doubts and triumphs.
A few years later, I was a single, overwhelmed mother of three; I still journaled.
It was a time when I was unhappy, lonely, self conscious and a complete nervous nelly. However, I loved the freedom of being able to take out my frustrations of daily life safely, secretly in pen and paper, whenever I needed to
I also began a wish list. Before anything like “the Secret” became popular, I remember toying around, drinking a cup of coffee, making a list of attributes of my dream man. I was extremely detailed, (must like children, must be kind, must be funny, and must like fishing…) right down to having him be a great kisser. This “man” list wasn’t my only one; by far…I had lists of things I needed to do around the house, ways to lose weight, ways to make money…lots of other things filled this journal but my dream man list was fairly memorable, and I reread it often, sometimes adding and subtracting attributes.
A few years later, I was given a book to read that outlined exactly how to ask for everything you could possibly want. Like a brand new computer. A new freezer. A car. The perfect weight for your body. The perfect man.
Just write it down, trust that you will get it, let it out into the universe, and close your notebook.
I did this, rather tongue in cheek, and filled several notebooks. Couldn’t hurt, right?
Actually, no. It didn’t hurt at all. As a matter of fact, one afternoon I went to pick up some Market Day at the elementary school. To my utter shock, my name was listed as the winner of a brand new freezer.
A guardian angel of a loan officer helped me buy an adorable green Honda that my sister had for sale. Nine years later, it’s still adorable…but a little rusty.
I applied for a $1000 grant to buy a computer to help with college schoolwork. I didn’t win the scholarship, but received a phone call informing me that although I didn’t win, my application had been taken to heart by the woman running the contest. Within two weeks I received a brand new Gateway computer/printer/monitor. For free. (Thank you, Linda Lael Miller.) It should be noted that my computer was the exact same Gateway computer setup that I had written down in my journal...right down to the color and brand name.
I found a diet that worked for me, and the time/motivation to exercise. I lost 65 pounds, reaching a good weight for my body type.
It could be argued that all of these really, really good things happened because I wrote them down, because some magic happened; that I asked for them in such a way that the universe was obligated to answer.
It could also be argued that writing those things down not only released into the universe that I wanted them…but ALSO released into the universe the idea that I finally thought I deserved them. That in the end, even if it was subconscious, I finally realized in some way that the only thing standing in the way of getting those things was ME. If I placed value on myself and what I wanted, I got it. What a revelation.
I grew from a timid, shy, overweight single mother into a confident, slimmer, better version of myself, all due to the power of writing, of valuing myself and what I wanted.
Whether or not writing down your wishes and dreams puts everything into motion, it certainly does open a portal. Seeing the written word is powerful. Opening your journal and seeing what you have asked for, over and over, reinforces in your head that what you’re asking for is not only valid and attainable, but also a foregone conclusion.
As you can see in my situation, I had several examples where my writing was powerful enough to me that it manifested things I wanted.
And that list of attributes I wanted in my perfect man? I met my husband Joe on eHarmony. Wouldn’t you know it; he met almost every single one of my detailed requests…the lone exception being he doesn’t like to fish. In the scope of things, this is an extremely minor detail.
What I still find even more amazing is that I had written it down, asked for it, put it away, and just trusted that eventually I’d find my perfect guy. And I did.